It has been a Trying week. Trying to get my daily habits in. Trying to get our school on track. Trying to get more contacting done with my business. Trying to stay sane while riding the last few days home in the cramped RV.
Yoda says it well, “Do or Do Not. There is no Try.”
Then I read Philippians 2:14 and humbled by my attitude during this trial:
“Do everything without grumbling or arguing.”
Yes, I have been grumbling and complaining. I am stepping it up a notch. I promise to show Love, Kindness, Peace, Patience, Gentleness, and Self-Control.
In our assignments this week, we were to go back and read 9 and 10 of Haanel—great reviews! Loved them. Then we were to choose from either Emerson’s Compensation or a chapter of our choosing. Well, my subby instantly said, choose your own all week. Attitude said, “You hated Emerson the first time, don’t do it again!” I chose Haanel 2 on Wednesday, then Thursday came and my book fell open to Emerson. I started trudging through the “old” manuscript and forcing my brain to take it in. I was surprised to find nuggets to underline. I only read a few pages Thursday and only a few pages today (Friday). But, I will finish it by the end of the weekend. Since we are traveling 10-12 hours each day in the RV back home, what else is there to do?! =)
Some of the nuggets I found are:
“What we gain in power is lost in time.”
“A surplusage given to one part is paid out of a reduction from another part of the same creature.”
Our other assignment was to think about (what I think is the world’s hardest question!) this:
WHAT AM I PRETENDING NOT TO KNOW?
Holy Crap? How to even start? What does it apply to? My finances/income? My personal relationships? My business? My spiritual life? My family? ALL?
FEAR has been rising to my thoughts this week. I have been picking up nuggets everywhere. Other trainings, Bible, and quiet time. Today’s nugget in Emerson was this: “Fear is an instructor…that there is rottenness where he appears. …He indicates great wrongs which must be revised.”
I have been afraid to confront. I have been afraid to be up front with new contacts with biz and ask the hard question (get the hard work out of the way). There is a MAJOR big bonus that can finance our future with our biz and company and the work must be done 3/31. I wrote an affirmation, just how we were taught—with feelings and 5 senses. I must read it daily so I overcome this fear of settling and not getting the work done. My subby rears its ugly old blueprint and I MUST master this. I am sooooo glad that I am in this class at this time. I can feel my subby retracting out of fear of this goal. And I am worth this income boost and worth the time and effort required!
I always keep my promises!